burning bridges

I am in a bridge burning mood. I once again find myself dealing with the frustration and foolishness that defines human interaction. People can be so stupid, myself included.

It would be so much easier to be a hermit. I could do it, too. I really think I could. All boarded up inside my house; texting or typing instead of talking to anyone; ordering my groceries on amazon.

But,

God says I can't. That's not His plan for me. I've gotta keep dealing with the dumbness. I might have a glimmer of hope that this refining is making me more like Him. I really do want to be like Him.

my own little world

I have heard the term, "in their own little world" many times over the years. In recent years, it was used often to describe my sons and their world which included autism. In fact, the phrase was almost part of the diagnostic process. "He's in his 'own little world.'"

I have come to believe that we all create our own little worlds. My husband and I will soon have been married 20 years. It often amuses me when I think about how we have created our own sub-culture. From our entertainment choices, food, clothing, music, books, etc., etc., the list goes on, our family has created its own unique lifestyle. Things that bother me greatly don't affect others. By the same token, scenarios that don't make me think twice cause other people great distress. And so on, and so on.

Observing other couples who might seem odd, makes me laugh because their weirdness is normal to them. They fit together perfectly.

Hopefully, we can all peacefully coexist side-by-side in our little worlds.

Wearing green today

Today I'm wearing a lime green turtleneck. Not because I'm celebrating St. Patrick's Day early, but because I'm honoring a little girl who would have been 12 years old today.

This is what my own 12 year old wrote on February 2nd.


'Sup, Korley

Today I found out that Korley Davis died. I really don't know how to feel right now. I knew about her, but I never really knew her. But I do know enough that I know where she's at right now.

One of Korley's good friends, and one of my friends, goes to my church. She, and all of the students at Liberty, need God more than ever right now.

If I could say anything to Korley right now, I'd say this:


What's up, Korley?

How are you liking heaven so far? It's pretty awesome, isn't it?

We are all going to miss you and we are even going to wear your colors on Friday for your birthday!

I know that you have entered your reward in heaven and that you are having a blast right now! And I am so happy for you because you were taken out of suffering and into eternity, but I just wanted to let you know that you inspired this community so much. You taught us how to come together as friends, family, and complete strangers to reach out, encourage, and to really pray as a body of believers.

I'll see you soon, Korley. (it will be sooner for you than for me)

Love,
Mary M. Edwards


Sometimes, I can't believe I get to be her Mom.

New Year's Resolutions

Funny that I'm not a "New Year's Resolution" kind of girl, but here I go, second year in a row, typing them up. I wonder if that makes them more official? Hmm. I'm still working on that "Letting Myself Off the Hook" thing from last year.

In 2011, I hereby resolve to:

write more (including blogging),

visit my mother regularly for no special reason, and make my husband do the same with his parents,

let go of things.

That's it, short and sweet.